So i realized the other day that it’s time to start writing here because the facebook algorithms are probably hiding some of the best content and would rather just start putting it all in one place.
I just installed the wordpress app on my phone so i can start just dumping all my photos up here, need to tie it in with instagram and fb and will be all set.
anyway, so yeah, 2018 was probably just as shitty as 2017. it’s hard to even keep track if i’m winning or losing.
It’s cliche to say but i think i’m going to just try to do better in 2019. I already have started trying to instill healthy habits while still having “fun”.
There have been several times of my life where i get the balance that i love. Everyday exercising and improving physically while still partying. Towards the end of 2018 i really came unglued and fucked up a few things that i’m wondering if they can be fixed. At this point a lot of this situations are 100% out of my control and just need to react the best way possible.
One nice thing tho is I recently met someone who REALLY likes me. I keep trying to think of the last woman i dated/slept with that enjoy my looks as much as her, it’s really pretty wonderful. I’ve been upfront with her as possible about my past and how i’m not really looking for monogamy at the moment after being loyal to Tanya for years. I’m just not gonna try it anymore. I’m going to be “good” and not tell them about it unless they ask because they get off on the idea of being with other women(some do).
I know she is eventually going to get serious feelings for me, think she might already since we spent new years together. I’ll worry about that when it gets too much but she honestly just enjoys having the company and she really enjoys the sex.
Trying to take it slow but it’s hard to have sex with someone more then once without emotion. It’s worrisome because we have a lot of mutual friends so when and if it does end, i have to be super careful.