fucking swear

i swear this site is running more like a suicidenote.txt instead of what you kids call a web log

today i went to my doctor.

i told him i wanted to quit drinking but i couldn’t deal with out patientness or rehab. he told me it wasn’t his profession and could refer me to someone else who specializes in “alcoholism”.

i have to pay my $20 copay to visit the doctor for the 30 second “i can’t help you” lesson.

i didn’t drink before i went to the doctor to show him that i was’t just faking that i want some pills but apparently my shaking hands wasn’t enough to get a script for anything.

i hate you all

hope i die tonight