Month: October 2004

Homegrown Security
A wood-burning stove, solar panels connected to car batteries for electricity and a satellite radio — all the comforts of home, right? But this little nest was found in a cave on Los Alamos National Laboratory land. Authorities evicted squatter Roy Moore from his hideaway, where he had apparently lived for years. A Lab employee noticed smoke wafting from a canyon. Firefighters called to the scene were impressed with Moore’s camp, which had a bed and a glass front door. Oh, and 10 pot plants outside the cave. Moore was charged with possession of a controlled substance and drug paraphernalia. He pleaded not guilty and was released. A Lab spokesman, who said the camp was about 50 yards from his office door, insisted Moore was not a “security threat.”
— Beverly Hanly

First off let us note, that black people….”I hate africans..so i do not call myself african american”. have a political base with stong liberal ties..on issues like jobs and health care….but can be conservative on issues like abortion, or crime.

I am going to do this as best i can in a way that is completely honest to myself and hopefully will convey what has never really been said, in alot of circles.

We Hate you…we really hate you.

We hate you because you take everything of any beauty, save it for yourselves..then sell it cheap.
You and your ancestors, wheather they owned a slave or not, profited from a political and economic system designed to oppress one group of people.
Did you think we would just forget that?….think about it.
Do you understand what the word means….. do you?

You have a good life here….you live longer healther lives, you recieve the finest medical care the world has..
You have the best homes, your children the best schools, and your homes are in the safest areas.
You ..today, right now, enjoy a standard of living, than has ever existed, in the history of mankind…
No wars are fought on you natives soil…not anymore….all the whole world cares what you think.
You have all this..and still we hear you bitch, AND MOAN….about every little thing that did not go your way today.

You have everything..all of it..it belongs to white folks…Got that?…are you sure..

So here’s the funny part…you have the nerve to act surprised when we do not take off our hats for Pledge, or sing the anthem at the games.
Like we should be grateful for how we were forced to live here, in this country…by you.
You act as if we should be so grateful, and nice and friendly…when deep down you do not want us here.
That is a fact…..when we move in…you move out…you ran to the suburbs, and take you taxes out of the city, like a half eaten fruit , you then throw it to us and call it charity.

We hate you because we cannot forgive so much …..your police harass us..draft laws favored us going to fight in your wars, to profit you and other white people.

Let’s look at world war two man’s greatest struggle against tyranny…to free Europe….Europe?
The fact is that OUR grandfathers served in that war…AND EVERY OTHER WAR, FOR THIS NATION.
We were fighting to free people….but we were still niggers then, huh?
So what do we get for helping you out of another war….not much…later we were told, change is slow.
So even though we were angry, we tried it your way, and an exceptional man came along and used your own hypocritcal religion against you.
So you killed him.
Another used your laws, to try and fight for justice….you discredit him.
Another spoke out and said we should defend ourselves, you surpress and misrepeat his message.

We have never had it good here, we live shorter unhealthier lives, most are uninsured, we work longer hours and for less pay.
We go into the wars you start,…then we get to be american…after the war..after the olympics…back to being niggers.

We Hate hearing you lie to yourselves…that you believe in freedom, and that you love this country…if you are holding a rebel flag, then you are a liar.
You can say, and you can feel that that flag is a part of your heritage..and that is all you mean by it….fine i believe you..but do not be naive.
The fact is that the confederate states of america…was a faction of ..well….anti american traitors…who did in fact hate freedom….
Symbols are powerful, and label you with the common image that symbol envokes…..in other words..German kids are not told that dressing up like ss officers and saluting swastikas is a normal, and harmless expression of their heritage.
Same idea guys….just pouring salt in the wound, and you are just so damn brazen about it.

Wake up..this is as good as it gets…you are too blind to realize you are the snake that has eaten it’s tail.

You see from where i see it..were screwed…you saw to that..never had a chance ..not really….but you have a rough road ahead.
You see there’s this new thang called Latinos…and they got your number.
It’s all about population growth, and they got it..they pick alot of winners now…and soon they will bury you, and you’ll fall right after us, down near the bottom of the american dream…your fall will be far sadder than ours, for you will be faced with your actions..you’ll see what all those pesky minorities and liberals were crying about.
Yup, it’s your ass in 2104…you do not understand what we are talking about…just wait….soon the President will be a man of color, but his last name Sanchez, or Flores.
You are all going to learn what it’s like..you will know and your children will know this, because you are gready, and selfish, you seek power, and above all money…your most worshipped deity.
You ever oppress each other and smile and call it commerce.
But there is a saying, it goes, you meet the same people on the way up and on the way down…..and you better believe once the Latinoes take over a voting plurality in this nation heads are going to roll…
You will suffer this…did you do anything to deserve it….you as a person?…most likely no.
Alot of africans did not deserve to be slaves either, alot of jews did not deserve to be slaughtered…but they were.
You think we are going to forget, what you did, who you were…we will be ready…and we will not go quietly , or have any sit in’s that night…..
You think we will not be waiting for what’s left of you when your done exploiting each other.
Be mad at me if you like, but i am the one who tries and understand you people…and I can still feel it burnning at me, I hear the jokes you think i do not…I see you.
I know your hearts are evil…you cannot help your fate no more than we can help ours…All we can do is take you down with us before this nation dies.
Plenty of room down here guys…come on down.

You want to talk about patriotism, we fought and bled for this nation when it hated us, we worked and built it as slaves.
We pay the late fees, and clean your houses, we feed you and fight in your wars, we insulate you from the criminal enterprises you build , control, and profit from.
We even give you kids a cool catch phrase to say…or show him what to wear.
We Hate you because it seems as if we are all spiralling out of control, and you guys think everything is fine.

Look….the thing is…we want to try…but you have to understand..American does not mean the same thing to us, as it does to you..for good reason.
American was our first enemy..our former opressor..the land of the free….if you are a white , christian, strait, political moderate, male, from the age of 18-35
We will say the pledge when we are ready…..you have no right to speak on freedom………..

Geez….LSD is Bad…can’t wait to see this tommorrow………

last night, or this morning, or whenever this happened, there was a mosquito in the computer room.

it bit my left hand. preemptive strikes upon my flesh to try to gain my oil, i mean blood.

he then had the balls to swoop and and bite the same hand.

i swipe and miss.

2 bites on the same hand.

what this little bastard doesn’t know is i’ve drank a jug of wine, ate a handful of sleeping pills and some pain killers that i stole from steve(sorry steve)

so this thing is flying sideways, pwned out of his mind, wondering what the fuck he took. he tries to land a 3rd time and the hand of toad comes down.

instant death, you hear that mr anderson? thats the sound of inevitability, but spelled right.

it was almost like the mosquito wrecked his really nice car and died. alll because he decided to drink from this death hole.

i can’t get over it tho. That mosquito decided he could suck a little more blood and still make the drive home.

Now he is just a smear on my desk.

In conclusion, i think this update is about how i like how the mosquito got what was coming to me.

it’s almost 4am.

1 more beer, no more updates.

so……….

this morning at 8am my Clie sounds a alarm. I have a meeting at Otherlands at 9am, a coffee shop that happens to have wireless internet access. i have a lot of my meetings there since it has wireless internet and coffee. it’s a cool location.

this is the 2nd meeting, im showing him the 2nd revision of the design. What he doesn’t know is i woke up, smoked a bowl of resin, drank 2 glasses of wine and i have a Fedex coffee mug(with top) full of wine, with me at the meeting, that im drinking out of during the whole 2 hours.

Only problem is we’re meeting some chick who is from upper management along with the cool dude i’ve met before. This might be bad. She starts talking about database merging. I don’t do that, i make websites.

I stink of alcohol. I am sweating because im nervous cuz im afraid they’ll hate it. But i don’t really care. I am only getting paid a few hundred bucks since this website is for a park. They can’t afford to talk to me sober.

No one can.

The meeting goes well, i show them the design, I code on the Vaio, they look at the site on the Tablet. I make changes to the website on the fly. Like a super web ninja, moving menu items, flowing like a….something that flows. Site is 90% done, gotta make changes here but it’s no big deal.

We make major progress. Site is almost done, they say they can give me some cash, i feel okay. It’s okay, it’s money, i need money. Gas stations need money for beer. Life is simple.

I leave there, buy a case a of beer and head to andy george’s. That’s all i have to say about that.

I’ts only 2pm.

Too drunk to see.

Must update.

I am an the ninja of webdesign.

you can’t afford me sober.

Democrats:

·Richard Gephardt: Air National Guard, 1965-71.
·David Bonior: Staff Sgt., Air Force 1968-72.
·Tom Daschle: 1st Lt., Air Force SAC 1969-72.
·Al Gore: enlisted Aug. 1969; sent to Vietnam Jan. 1971 as an army
journalist in 20th Engineer Brigade.
·Bob Kerrey: Lt. j.g. Navy 1966-69; Medal of Honor, Vietnam.
·Daniel Inouye: Army 1943-47; Medal of Honor, WWII.
·John Kerry: Lt., Navy 1966-70; Silver Star, Bronze Star with Combat V,
Purple Hearts.
·Charles Rangel: Staff Sgt., Army 1948-52; Bronze Star, Korea.
·Max Cleland: Captain, Army 1965-68; Silver Star & Bronze Star,
Vietnam.
·Ted Kennedy: Army, 1951-53.
·Tom Harkin: Lt., Navy, 1962-67; Naval Reserve, 1968-74.
·Jack Reed: Army Ranger, 1971-1979; Captain, Army Reserve 1979-91.
·Fritz Hollings: Army officer in WWII; Bronze Star and seven
campaign ribbons.
·Leonard Boswell: Lt. Col., Army 1956-76; Vietnam, DFCs, Bronze
Stars, and Soldier’s Medal.
·Pete Peterson: Air Force Captain, POW. Purple Heart, Silver Star
and Legion of Merit.
·Mike Thompson: Staff sergeant, 173rd Airborne, Purple Heart.
·Bill McBride: Candidate for Fla. Governor. Marine in Vietnam; Bronze
Star with Combat V.
·Gray Davis: Army Captain in Vietnam, Bronze Star.
·Pete Stark: Air Force 1955-57
·Chuck Robb: Vietnam
·Howell Heflin: Silver Star
·George McGovern: Silver Star & DFC during WWII.
·Bill Clinton: Did not serve. Student deferments. Entered draft but received .311.
·Jimmy Carter: Seven years in the Navy.
·Walter Mondale: Army 1951-1953
·John Glenn: WWII and Korea; six DFCs and Air Medal with 18 Clusters.
·Tom Lantos: Served in Hungarian underground in WWII. Saved by Raoul
Wallenberg.

Republicans:

·Dick Cheney: did not serve. Several deferments, the last by marriage.
·Dennis Hastert: did not serve.
·Tom Delay: did not serve.
·Roy Blunt: did not serve.
·Bill Frist: did not serve.
·Mitch McConnell: did not serve.
·Rick Santorum: did not serve.
·Trent Lott: did not serve.
·John Ashcroft: did not serve. Seven deferments to teach business.
·Jeb Bush: did not serve.
·Karl Rove: did not serve.
·Saxby Chambliss: did not serve. “Bad knee.” The man who attacked
Max Cleland’s patriotism.
·Paul Wolfowitz: did not serve.
·Vin Weber: did not serve.
·Richard Perle: did not serve.
·Douglas Feith: did not serve.
·Eliot Abrams: did not serve.
·Richard Shelby: did not serve.
·Jon! Kyl: did not serve.
·Tim Hutchison: did not serve.
·Christopher Cox: did not serve.
·Newt Gingrich: did not serve.
·Don Rumsfeld: served in Navy (1954-57) as flight instructor.
·George W. Bush: failed to complete his six-year National Guard; got assigned to Alabama so he could campaign for family friend running
for U.S. Senate; failed to show up for required medical exam, disappeared
from duty.
·Ronald Reagan: due to poor eyesight, served in a non-combat role making movies.
·B-1 Bob Dornan: Consciously enlisted after fighting was over in Korea.
·Phil Gramm: did not serve.
·John McCain: Silver Star, Bronze Star, Legion of Merit, Purple Heart
·and Distinguished Flying Cross.
·Dana Rohrabacher: did not serve.
·John M. McHugh: did not serve.
·JC Watts: did not serve.
·Jack Kemp: did not serve. “Knee problem,” although continued in NFL for 8 years.
·Dan Quayle: Journalism unit of the Indiana National Guard.
·Rudy Giuliani: did not serve.
·George Pataki: did not serve.
·Spencer Abraham: did not serve.
·John Engler: did not serve.
·Lindsey Graham: National Guard lawyer.
·Arnold Schwarzenegger: AWOL from Austrian army base. Pundits & Preachers
·Sean Hannity: did not serve.
·Rush Limbaugh: did not serve (4-F with a ‘pilonidal cyst.’)
·Bill O’Reilly: did not serve.
·Michael Savage: did not serve.
·George Will: did not serve.
·Chris Matthews: did not serve.
·Paul Gigot: did not serve.
·Bill Bennett: did not serve.
·Pat Buchanan: did not serve.
·John Wayne: did not serve.
·Bill Kristol: did not serve.
·Kenneth Starr: did not serve.
·Antonin Scalia: did not serve.
·Clarence Thomas: did not serve.
·Ralph Reed: did not serve.
·Michael Medved: did not serve.
·Charlie Daniels: did not serve.
·Ted Nugent: did not serve. (He only shoots at things that don’t shoot back.)

Please keep this information circulating
Sen. Howard W. Carroll

I was sitting at lunch the other day and heard some friends going off about corporation outsourcing jobs to third world nations, thus robbing american workers of jobs in the united states.
Now let me say as a fully owned slave to my own corporate masters, I am no fan of outsourcing, or in the horrible way in which the Corp. treats people. but let’s be real here.
How many of you out there , register your car in the county, but live in the city, to AVOID HIGHER TAXES?
How many of you work in Memphis…or some other city, yet live in the county , to AVOID TAXES?
The facts are that alot of people are walking around with their american flags, and their jingoistic slogans, yet mention the idea of any kind of tax hike,for ANY REASON and you have lost them.
If you want to be a patriot, be one…vote, pay your taxes honestly, do not break the law….live where you make your money, and do not simply take city goods and services, and leave the rest of us with the tab.
If you believe in something, you should be able to commit to your own communities future…that sometimes means unpleasant things…like TAXES.
Alot of these same people, now place demands on the city, like schools, and roads, that we pay for…by we I mean responsible tax paying people

You are avoiding paying for the very same things you claim you want the goverment to provide for.

Now, also, it should be noted, that our goverment does a horrible job as stewards our tax dollars….the Answer…VOTE…not just in 04..but as often as you can.
It is the best term limit of all…go out..and learn about the issues …make a choice.
Do not expect me or anyone else to be responsible for the city YOU live in.

So wave your flags all you like, and go one claiming you support our troops..and cheer when someone says we can make Health care affordable for all americans….but be real about it.
Do not expect some goverment official to be honest with you..if you are not willing to be honest with yourself.

We have quickly become a society of spoiled children wanting to avoid doing our duty as citizens, but at the same time enjoy all the benefits that come with it.
So if you are looking to bash the corporations…fine and dandy…i hate the bulk of them…but look in the mirror while you do it.

Nevermind…..guess i’ll just move to the burbs too……is there still some vodka around here?

http://www.homefrontcalgary.com/announcements/index.htm

MURDER . Every day four women die in this country as a result of domestic violence, the euphemism for murders and assaults by husbands and boyfriends. That’s approximately 1,400 women a year, according to the FBI. The number of women who have been murdered by their intimate partners is greater than the number of soldiers killed in the Vietnam War.

BATTERING . Although only 572,000 reports of assault by intimates are officially reported to federal officials each year, the most conservative estimates indicate two to four million women of all races and classes are battered each year. At least 170,000 of those violent incidents are serious enough to require hospitalization, emergency room care or a doctor’s attention.

SEXUAL ASSAULT . Every year approximately 132,000 women report that they have been victims of rape or attempted rape, and more than half of them knew their attackers. It’s estimated that two to six times that many women are raped, but do not report it. Every year 1.2 million women are forcibly raped by their current or former male partners, some more than once.

THE TARGETS . Women are 10 times more likely than men to be victimized by an intimate. Young women, women who are separated, divorced or single, low- income women and African-American women are disproportionately victims of assault and rape. Domestic violence rates are five times higher among families below poverty levels, and severe spouse abuse is twice as likely to be committed by unemployed men as by those working full time. Violent attacks on lesbians and gay men have become two to three times more common than they were prior to 1988.

IMPACT ON CHILDREN . Violent juvenile offenders are four times more likely to have grown up in homes where they saw violence. Children who have witnessed violence at home are also five times more likely to commit or suffer violence when they become adults.

IMPACT ON HEALTH AND SOCIAL SERVICES . Women who are battered have more than twice the health care needs and costs than those who are never battered. Approximately 17 percent of pregnant women report having been battered, and the results include miscarriages, stillbirths and a two to four times greater likelihood of bearing a low birth weight baby. Abused women are disproportionately represented among the homeless and suicide victims. Victims of domestic violence are being denied insurance in some states because they are considered to have a “pre-existing condition.”

oXMEPHXo: would you go down on jesus if he returns ?
scoutMASTERtoad: if he looked like you?

hi.

this is crackhore.com

this is my terrible site. it costs me money every month. i sell shirts, yet send them off a month late. sorry cam.

i like sleeping pills

more then life, more then you, more then me.

sexy bluez.

everyone hates me right now. as they should.

i am going to eat you.

omgwtfswede: you need help
scoutMASTERtoad: oh

god this site sucks. i mean seriously.

i have other sites. but they suck too. the worst part is i have other sites, and they suck worse. but crackhore sucks 2x more then all of the other oral sites.

i hate that it’s not even midnight and all my aim windows are k lining me.

i hate that im going to wake up on the floor, with this window still open. if you make websites for a living and you are reading this, stop. no keep reading, stop making websites.

make sandwiches.

watched a history channel episode about the guy who faked sailing around the world.

he got halfway there, started faking logs, then jumped off the boat and killed himself. they said he fragged himself since he felt so bad faking that he did something he didn’t do. they showed bbc videos of him going more and more insane before the video just stops.

even tho i was owned as shit and watching this, i still felt like he had one up on me. at least he was lying about a great story that he didn’t do. but at least he wasn’t making this shit up while still on solid land.

as the tapes wore on, he went more and more crazy, suffering from a severe lack of aim/internet, he was singing about being a drunken pirate.

i wish to hell he would have saved the video of him jumping off the boat and closing the window.

he just bailed, over the rail, goodbye cruel world, it’s over, sail on by.

this should have a moral

donald crowhurst pwned by sailing

wow last night’s debate was my favorite by far. i’m not too concerned about terrorism since i live in a place that is so unimportant that they probably couldn’t even spare the resources for a single car bomb.

but being completely broke, overdrawn in bank account and bills going on the Visa card, kinda makes me wonder what Bush and Kerry’s plans for the economy are.

i only watched about half the debates last night since after the first 30 mins it all starts to kinda blur together in my head. But i did manage to catch the part where Bush told me and all the other unemployed people that we need to go to community college since our jobs have been outsourced to India.

He didn’t seem to mention how exactly im going to pay for that, since, well, i’m unemployed, but i’m sure that’s a detail that a oil tycoon can easily overlook. I’d love for him to say that to some out of work assembly line dude with 3 kids and a morgage. “oh i’ll just go back to school”

so sick of this country. if bush gets another 4 years then im selling all my wordly possesions and moving to mexico. you guys have fun with your terror alerts and drug laws. bbl

updates have been coming slow lately since i’ve been focusing on other personal sites, including a site for dog owners of memphis, as many of you know.

time’s are bad, i have to admit that. depression and self doubt grows with each second i’m awake. the only reason to wake up is to stay awake long enough to not fee guilty about eating more sleeping pills.

i should form a support group.

oh well, i miss you all.