I need to stop trying to find a partner in life

I felt good to type out tha title. Dude you are 43 years old, nothing about you is attractive, you have gotten amazing at faking it but like jesus christ. A and then R and then K, it’s obvious having a partner wasn’t part of..this. Whatever, just be sad, blah.

lol whatever, stupid feelings, just sad lonely feelings, my destiny to be the king of the pain.

ugh sang that last night and i hate how accurate it feels and almost pulled me out of the moment…i have stood here before the pouring rain…

there is skeleton choking on a crust of bread