Month: April 2003

hmm

every once in a while when i get really drunk, i like to take out my AA book that the lady gave me on the plane to my miami trip. It’s really funny, or i guess kinda sad, that they say all alcoholics end in either death or insanity.

i think i’m starting to see which one im heading too.

Like i figure, with enough exercise, vitamins and milk thistle, i can live to the ripe age of maybe 45. By then i’ll had my fill of life and probably yearn for the sweet darkness of death.

But by then i’ll be so fucking crazy it won’t matter how old i am when i finally do die in some ditch, laptop clutched in arms. Before i used to think, naw, you drink too much, you die, that’s how it works. Now i’m starting to see what they mean by the insanity part tho.

Anyway, going on trip, be back in 2 days. I love all of u. I told u i was hardcore.

i feel fucking terrible

god, beer before liquor, never more goddamn fucking hungover the next morning….blew off everyone i was supposed to hangout wiht last night and went on my own drunken adventure through memphis…

last night at one bar they were telling me about how i was there the night before. The ambien night. Which i also remembered almost 24 hours after it happened, was also the perkiset night too.

apparently i went to this bar, sat down looking really fucked up(cuz i was), didn’t order any drinks or anything, then left.

it’s thursday now and im pretty sure i’ve figured out all of tuesday.

i think im staying in tonight

bad idea

last night i went over to **** and ****’s for dinner. We sat down and had a nice family dinner. They pullled up to the house about a hour ago and i was sitting in ****’s lawn chair drinking a bottle of merlot and reading a freemasonry book. No glass, just the bottle.

After dinner, we’re watching tv and hanging out and **** gives me a little baggy with a Ambien in it. Now if you don’t know about Ambien, let me give you a formal introduction.

PRONOUNCED: AM-bee-en
GENERIC NAME: Zolpidem tartrate

Why is this drug prescribed?
Ambien is used for short-term treatment of insomnia (difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep, or early awakening). A relatively new drug, it is chemically different from other common sleep medications such as Halcion and Dalmane.

How should you take this medication?
Ambien works very quickly. Take it just before going to bed. Take only the prescribed dose, exactly as instructed by your doctor.–If you miss a dose…Take Ambien only as needed. Never double the dose.–Storage instructions…Store at room temperature. Protect from extreme heat.

Ugh, i don’t see “snorting off the top of your laptop” anywhere in that last paragraph. Anyway, i don’t remember the drive home, i wake up on the couch with my mom on the phone asking what time they wanted me at the office.