my mom gave me a birthday card with “always remember what your mother would want you to do!, love of love, mom”.
I realized that like 99% of my decisions throughout my day are exactly what my mom would want me to do.
i never knew a birthday card would make me feel guilty. i mean i think i remember what my mom would want me to do but i think i just use that as a means of what my schedule will be like that day.
this is kind of depressing, ending update.