not like you guys get a lot of updates anyway

im going out of town for a few days to tremont TN. I leave Kaleb in my apartment to watch my stupid physical possesions.

gonna be intresting being gone for a few days…..i’m taking a photography tour so hopefully i’ll find a fellow alcoholic that i can drink with. only problem is the itineary(sp). breakfast is at 6am. i’m used to going to bed at 3.

gonna be intresting

update to come

another unsober update

heh wow….so like most people, they have one life. They are the same person, day in, day out, they never put on a different face. Like you put on a semi different face for your job, etc but i have two completely different lives.

Theres toad, the alcoholic, pothead, drug addict who stumbles through life trying to find excitement anywhere he can.

Then there’s Michael. A brillant(yes i’ve been drinking), yet always hungover looking webdesigner. He makes pretty decent websites for a decent amount of money and that’s all they see. I hand them my business card, i smile, i shave my face, and i look like a decent individual. I get introduced at socials, i tell them i can hook them up with a great site, etc.

They have no idea who they are dealing with.

I love it too.

I was deleting pictures from Baton Rouge on my camera to take pictures of a bunch of white guys in suits who all owned businesses. I was the only one without a tie, my shirt untucked, my pants covered in bleach stains, wine in one hand, coolpix in the other.

Deleting pictures of my friends, drunk, high and god knows what else, to take pictures of white land owning males haha. I love it.

$10 to whoever can pick my dad out of the pics

My poor camera has captured so many drunk moments and then it does something like this…….im glad i had some wine to kill my hangover and stop my hands from shaking cuz it made the pics turn out a lot better…

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gawd, after another long night of drinking, i wake up, begin the hunt for my glasses which takes a little bit longer then usual. I find them under the bed, god knows how they got there. The morning glass of water is poured, complete with ice and i sit down at aim….

toad mental image of the day

toad, drunk, still dressed in his meeting clothes from earlier, screaming at his medicine cabinet and throwing a plastic comb at the mirror

YOU WON’T HELP ME SLEEP! STUPID COMB!

gawd, where are my sleeping pills when i’m physically addicted to them……

not sure it was his still their using his name, and she, gave him shelter….

i am the perfect boyfriend

aimgirl1: it’s a shame you’re not up here we could sit and be miserable together
scoutmastertoad: yeah
scoutmastertoad: it’s tough to be miserable with me tho
aimgirl1: i’m sure it would end up in massive quantities of drugs being consumed
scoutmastertoad: cuz i get off work at 6pm and i gotta jerk off twice before i go to sleep…around midnight
aimgirl: hehe
scoutmastertoad: i dunno if you’re the kind of girl who likes guys jerking off in front of them
aimgirl1: *shurg* whatever ties your shoes dearie
scoutmastertoad: haha
scoutmastertoad: yeah then we’d have a great time
scoutmastertoad: i’d come home around 6pm, we’d play a few games of warcraft, i’d jerk off in front of you, eat some pills, we’d lay on the couch, watch a dvd and cuddle, i’d jerk off in front of you again, maybe eat some more drugs, play some more warcraft, drink and then cuddle as i fall asleep
aimgirl1: hehe

what are you doing

marsgodess1: so anything esle going on or are you just sitting alone being drunk
scoutmastertoad: ugh absolutely nothing
scoutmastertoad: came home from a meeting at 4pm
scoutmastertoad: was really depressed
scoutmastertoad: got drunk
scoutmastertoad: now i’m just bored and drunk
marsgodess1: exciting day
scoutmastertoad: i wish
scoutmastertoad: i’m so bored i want to slit my wrists and see what happens

woohoo! the time is getting closer!

hehe it’s been a boring day…..the meeting with okay….theres nothing better then having a client turn to you and say “what do you think?” and you shrug and say “well, what darrell said”.

i get home around 3pm since there wasn’t shit to work on at the office anyway, open the bottle of wine last night, get trashed, sun goes down…..

it’s 7:30 now….ian came into my apartment to find toad, sitting with all the lights off, listening to tori, and drinking wine by himself. what do you say to that haha….

just washed down 2 kava kava’s with the red wine….should be in bed by 10 hopefully, so i can start another useless day in my stupid useless life